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Are There Angels Among Us? - A lot has happened to me over the last couple of weeks. In fact, my entire life has turned completely upside down. I’m angry and frustrated and sad almo...

Fun Times - I had a really nice weekend. I was able to hang out with a fun friend who I haven't seen in a while. Sometimes the cure for loneliness is to reach out to a...

Pride, And Where I've Been - It's almost been a full month since I last wrote. Sorry about that. I've wanted to write, but life has just gotten very, very busy of late. I was in reh...

Utah - Our vacation here in Utah draws to a close. We'll be flying home soon. It has been a good vacation. We've seen all of the people who asked us to come se...

Boxes, boxes everywhere... - I walked into my apartment a few hours ago. I have not been here in about three days. (I spent an awesome weekend with Leigh and will have to follow-up th...

So happy together - I had the wonderful pleasure of doing a wedding photo shoot recently. I could not resist showing this adorable "little couple"- hope you like their photo: ...

My relationship with my Savior - The other day I met with a friend of mine—a non-Mormon, very spiritual man who has committed much of his life to Christ-like service within the LGBTQ comm...

Hide Your Wives - Kim and I made our way to the stake center just before 4:30 this afternoon. My stake president was waiting outside his office door, asked our names and shook...

missing that feeling - today I felt a distinct difference between my life and being in a member's home - it was so great to feel the spirit and be in a home again where the spiri...

Memorializing - As coincidence would have it, the 10th anniversary of my mother’s death falls on Memorial Day this year. Most of us just celebrate this as the start of su...

Someone Who Understands - Some days I find myself wishing for someone who can understand me and everything I'm going through. Someone who has been where I am, made it through someho...

Places I Want to Move to: #1 - As I come belatedly to my last two-ish years in University, I have begun to roughly compile a list of places I want to move to. I am working to become a h...

One of These Kids Will Grow Up To Be Fabulous - I Cried Laughing Last night my partner showed me the photo below which he had stumbled across on someone's facebook page. Without even reading the text I a...

just. watch this. - This is how it's done in Portland.

A Marigold Surprise... - If a film can bring one to laugh and cry and truly fill the spans of emotion, and develop the opportunity for a thought-provoking discussion about the sag...

My Intermediate Algebra students are taking their first test this Tuesday. - Wish them luck! Now solve the following word problem: Two trains leave Salt Lake City going in opposite directions. Train #2 is going twice as fast as Trai...

The Thoughtless Police - Lots of discussion going around on Facebook, on blogs, amongst distant friends in distant cites and elsewhere, all talking about all the great people in th...

The Road Home - One of the earliest, hardest lessons I had to learn as a kid was taught to me by my Grandmother. I was a young child, and I'd just come smack up against so...

Um…. when the freak did this happen??? Holy cow, keep... - Um…. when the freak did this happen??? Holy cow, keep breathing people.

My walk to work this morning. Palisades, New York (Taken with... - My walk to work this morning. Palisades, New York (Taken with instagram)

Bunch of Amateurs - Today on Radio West, Doug Fabrizio interviewed Jack Hitt, the author of a new book, "Bunch of Amateurs: A Search for the American Character." In the book...

- Screw You world. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm not going to kill myself, but if an accident wants to do the honors i'd appreciate it

Why I Hate Hate Crime Legislation - I noticed an article from the Huffington Post on the first prosecutionunder Federal hate crime legislation for actions towards a gay person. Full disclosur...

Immigration Equality - America, where are you? Immigration equality around the world. Recognition of same-sex couples to immigration Unknown/Ambiguous Source: Hentzer on Wi...

Why I Cannot Hate the Mormon Church - I'm living in Provo again. How do I keep winding up in this valley? It's like living in some weird Twilight zone, honestly. I used to think it was just bec...

Moving Out - I don't know if any of you know this but my husband, my daughter and I have been living with my husband's side of the family for the last three years. ...

I Run This Town - I'm pretty sure it was on a Nike T-shirt somewhere; I saw this phrase, "I run this town." Of course it was a running shirt implying the obvious, but for s...

Feeding the homeless - I have been looking at the homeless in a different light lately. As I interact with the homeless I try to listen to what they are asking for and try to h...

Thinking - Therapist talked with me about some things that are happening inside me which he believes will not be helpful. Then we discussed different strategies to ci...

LGBTQ Suicides - There have been too many suicides of late, and many of them have been LGBTQ teens and others. Someone asked me the other day, "I'm interested in your feel...

Yoga - I've been doing yoga 3 times a week for the last month and I am really into it. I've tried 3 different instructors and all have been great. I am going th...

Obama: I like coke. - Obama: I like coke. Fox News: Obama declares war on Pepsi!

Music That I Like - Alive by Natalie Grant - It's been awhile since I've posted on here. Having a second blog to post on (Mormon Geeks) has been sapping some of my writing creativity. I'm going to s...

HW#113 Naked Trucker - A quick update before beddy by Bobby Jo Valentine Life Click here to read me good buddy

Weight Loss - In February of this year I decided it was time for change. So I started dieting and exercising. I still have work to do but here is the progress so far.

The Campaign Within to be released in June - The first time I met Neil Giuliano was on a Tempe based airline America West flight from Phoenix to Washington DC in January 2001. I had just turned 19, wa...

The ackward moment when I pinched a straight man's butt - Last Friday I went to a wine-tasting party. I had never been to an actual event where different...

i bet you never knew this, but i'm bi-coastal - There may be an opportunity to move to Los Angeles/West Hollywood near the end of summer to start a job that runs through November. It's exactly the typ...

Thank You Mr. President! - Click Here For Video For the first time in history, a sitting president has come out in favor of gay marriage. Thank you Mr. President for having such cour...

Presidential Opinion - Today President Obama announced that his views have evolved and he now supports gay marriage. Hoorah! It really is a momentous day! It is one more step ...

Everyone's a little bit... - homophobic? I'm sure many will recognize the song from the hit Broaday musical *'Avenue Q'* called 'Everyone's A Little Bit Racist' (see it here). This son...

Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy - It continues to amaze me how excited I get when I unexpectedly run across a gay character in one of the movies I'm watching. During Tinker Tailor Soldier ...

With Our Finances Combined - Brian and I are one step closer to marriage... or some people would just say we broke another assumed law that proper couples wait to do after marriage. No...

Being alone - Today was a pretty rough day. I won't elaborate here because I don't want to have a chance of things getting back to certain individuals but the following...

Stake Outreach Firesides Continue in South Jordan - The Outreach Firesides are contiuing on a monthly basis at 1788 W. 11400 S in South Jordan. The last fireside was held on April 15 with Dr. Bill Bradshaw f...

THT: Santa Claus's Greatest Gift - Bliss - I believed in Santa Clause through most of my elementary school life. It's true. I had no reason to suspect the jolly old man wasn't real. In fact, I fel...

THT: Santa Claus's Greatest Gift - Bliss - I believed in Santa Clause through most of my elementary school life. It's true. I had no reason to suspect the jolly old man wasn't real. In fact, I fel...

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It gets better. ...If. - OK, it just gets better.  From adolescence, things get better even for the vast majority of those who could see no light at the end of the tunnel.  There are...

Great Day at Church - I really do like church now. Got to touch base with some of my church friends and my pastor. It is nice to be valued as a member of my congregation where ...

New Bill in California Aimed at Sexual Orientation Therapy - I learned about a new bill being considered by the California Senate that is aimed at curtailing what is called sexual orientation change therapy. I've often...

A MoHo* Moment - * For the uninitiated, "MoHo" refers to a Mormon homosexual. This bloggerclaims credit, in part, for the origin of the term.

My so-called (ex-gay) therapy - I need to finish reading for my seminars. I am a graduate student after all. Instead, all I can think about is the article I read here on "My So-Called Ex...

8. What are 5 passions you have? - (in no particular order) 1. Education. I love, love, *love* teaching. I love, love, *love*, learning. If I were ever to get into politics, it wou...

Lots More School Ahead - Been accepted into the English department (PhD) at the University of Washington. Will begin this autumn.

Strangers in the Land - Following is an essay which I wrote for the Spring 2012 issue of Exponent II, which is focused on LGBT issues: *Strangers in the Land* Several times ove...

RIP MoHo era (2006-2012) - 'Tis a new beginning that is coming our way. After the smashing success of the BYU panel on Homosexuality and the "It Gets Better" video, there is a ...

The Buck Stops Here! - I have always loved President Harry S. Truman as a sort of mythical underdog who beat “Dewey” (whomever that was) who jokingly commented that his middle in...

The Buck Stops Here! - I have always loved President Harry S. Truman as a sort of mythical underdog who beat “Dewey” (whomever that was) who jokingly commented that his middle in...

I have a new crush! - So, this is kind of dumb. But I was in the mood for a less-serious post. Have you all seen that commercial for SunSweet's Plum Amazins with that New Z...

Two Years Out - Two years out today! Hooray! Best decision I've ever made in my life. I realize that I have not updated this blog in a whole year. (Sorry about that!) But...

He lifts me up in his perfect love... - On this beautiful Easter day, I feel compelled to thank God for a wonderful world and express my deepest love for him and his son, Jesus. While there is ...

Horrible week - This past week was absolutely terrible... depression-wise, and anxiety-wise. It just seemed like suddenly I couldn't handle any of the responsibilities on ...

… a scarlet letter … - The burnished red letter on his chest marked him as a glutton and the citizens reviled him, throwing upon him their kitchen scraps, though he wasted away. ...

He's Baaaaack! - Hi all. (is there is anyone still reading this.....zzzzz......no? Oh well, I'll keep writing just in case.) It's been a little over seven months since I l...

It Gets Better, Part Deux - On the heels of panel discussion led by four LGBT students (all of whom I love) at BYU, but also unfortunately on the heels of another gay LDS suicide is t...

Navigating Conflicts Between Religious Liberties and Gay Rights - I went to an event last night at school.  As part of the diversity lecture series, Clifford Rosky presented a lecture that was titled "Navigating Conflicts B...

Wheels and Deals - After reading one of the blogs I follow, Jay in VA, I was reminded if my early experiences with car buying. Oh the memories came flooding back. I was in t...

It is not good for man to be alone - I'm not a big fan of biblical exegesis. It's just not something that speaks to me. It reminds me of arguments about tax law. *HOWEVER...* Occasionally, on...

Get it Out! - I'm not really planning on posting this anywhere, and I'm not really sure who's going to read it. All I know is that I'm having a really hard time right no...

Gay date during LDS general conference - Ok--time for me to have some fun telling a story. So yesterday I went up to Salt Lake, met a friend, then afterwards went on a date. It wasn't a fi...

porn - cry I miss porn and sex ...

The Dallas gayborhood - The intersection of Cedar Springs Road and Throckmorton Street near downtown Dallas is is the center of the Dallas gay community - also known as the Dallas g...

- As some what of a big surprise to me, my social life has picked up quite a bit in recent weeks. As a consequence my anger towards the church has faded. I'm...

In which Brett Explores the Dark Side of Sexual Repression - There is a trend, I think, toward believing that choosing celibacy is a legitimate option. At the very least, there seems to be a trend toward feeling like...

Confession of An Addict and Call to Arms! -

Happy and Dark Thoughts - I responded to a Facebook post this morning with this statement: "Sorry to hear you've been feeling lonely and longing for a relationship. Totally agree that...

The Divorce and Death of MOM - *This was our wedding song* “I’m gay.” Those words were once impossible for me to utter. In fact, it took months after being “outed” bef...

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Bloom where you're planted - I guess you could say I'm a bit of a drifter. It drives Brennan absolutely nuts. We have moved a total of five times in our less-than four years of marriag...

Reintroduction to the Present - So, yes, my last post was the present reaching to a visceral moment in time years past. I don't know if in the present, today, I hold the same impassion...

So Maybe It's Time to Come Out Some More - I really want to try to get through to my parents. I know my Mom is trying to be understanding and accepting of her gay son, and I appreciate her effort...

Perfectionism - I'm a perfectionist in most aspects of my life. Even though perfectionism can be a kind of sick motivation to achieve great feats, as we saw in Black Swa...

Oil and Water - How much does God want to see me succeed in this life? What does he want from me? Do I even care if I know that or not? If God was really looking out for ...

True Love - When out to dinner the other night my wife mentions I need to find my "true love" because she isn't it. It caught me off guard. I thought things were going...

Prop 8 Ruling Rant - I know I haven't blogged in forever but I simply must take to my trusty keyboard today in light of yesterday's ruling in California which found prop 8 unco...

LDS Church--Responce to Calf decision - Email Print 07 February 2012 — Salt Lake City The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints issued the following statement today regarding the decision ...

I'm back - After putting my blog on the back burner (and under lock and key) for graduate school applications I'm back. I guess maybe I'm not as completely out about ...

My Sojourn into a world of Authenticity and Honesty - Well, it’s been a great couple of months since Thanksgiving and I’ve had a wonderful few months of making new friends and dating. Last night I viewed an...

3 month Challenge - I used to have abs...I still have abs, but not the glorious defined abs that used to be on my body. A year and a half ago my abs looked like this: Now my...

Arizona or Bust - Well, it was an interesting year...the one I spent in Sugarhouse, UT. The relationship with the guy I was dating didn't work out and life in that house tu...

New Facebook Support Group - *By Mister Curie* * * My wife and I have been somewhat frustrated in trying to find a support group for mixed-orientation marriages that seem relevant to ou...

Out & About - Coming out to my family was an out-of-body experience. As my mouth began moving, forming words I had rehearsed time and time again, I forfeited all contro...

Something I Need to Work On - I’ve been pondering writing this for the past week. This past fast Sunday I prayed and fasted that I could be a better friend to my friends. When I was don...

Pinterest - Rachel is now on Pinterest, collecting pretty pictures. If you'd like to find her, she's under quandaryuncensored at gmail.

A Little Past Late to the Now - Things have drastically changed in the past year and a half. I continued to do hair school and finished in March of 2011. I am now a licensed Cosmetologist...

My former EFY Session Directors have left the church - They recently had an interview done, and I thought it was great. Here is the link to the interview and I will embed the videos in my blog. Part One Part...

My Decision to Destroy God’s Plan - Rather than attending Church this weekend, I decided to spend time on other worthwhile activities such as enjoying quality time with friends. While I don’t...

Tuesday, 3 AM - Tuesday, 3 am Once again I’m wide awake. Waiting for this time to mend this heart of mine, That keeps on breaking. Newspapers I throw away Wash the dishes in...

New Post - There's a new post on my blog here. Enjoy!

Another lonely season - One would think that after several years that having a blue Christmas would only get easier, that yes, "It gets better." I seem to find myself in the sa...

- Anh Minh, words cannot express how deeply touched we are by your letter. My mom especially would like to say that she is very happy for you and same goes f...

To End a Dialogue - Dear Sentry, I know that I promised you that we would continue our journey together. However, I feel that it is time to end this particular blog. Let's be ...

Closing Time - *There comes a time in every man's life when he must have not only the wisdom to recognize the error of his ways, but the courage to change. If not, he rem...

The News from Around Here - First, I am ok. Second, I am fighting a particularly nasty version of breast cancer. Repeating, I am ok and really blessed to be spiritually, mentally and ...

Forged: Et tu, Paulus? - *“[Paul] is about 5 foot high; very dark hair; dark complexion, dark skin; large Roman nose; sharp face; small black eyes, penetrating as eternity; round...

- I tried talking to my wife yesterday about me needing to take a step back from the church right now. She seemed frustrated and almost as though she didn't ...

Keeping a Secret vs. Protecting Oneself. - On Friday I had a former co-worker-friend call me. He went on to tell me that our old mutual boss had texted him and mentioned he saw something on my Face...

Imagine... - i've been doing a bit of public speaking lately and here are two different presentations on the same topic that i did in boise. this first one was presented ...

- I never had the intention to truly stop blogging, I still dont.  However the person who started this blog is no longer in existence.  The desperate, sad, fea...

The Lord’s Way - Intro: This comes from a talk by Elder Uchtdorf called Providing in the Lord's Way from the Priesthood Session of the October 2011 General Conference. As I...

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A Big Fish in a Small Tank - If anyone has spent much time taking care of fish, you most likely know that fish can only grow so big in a tank that is too small for them. If you put the...

Origins - Coming into the master’s program at the Museum School, I wanted to leave Mormonism out my new work. I felt I moved past that dialogue and wanted to leave i...

‘Voices of Hope’ now available in softcover and eBook formats! - The new Deseret Book publication addressing same-gender attraction (including one essay with a transgender story), Voices of Hope: Latter-day Saint Perspec...

Hot Model Bikini - Indonesian bikini babe in pink from Indonesia lovely model , it always for someone who like to swimming at pool or at the beach ...

Brightly Beams -

An Opportunity to Give - The wife of a friend of mine is fighting a courageous battle with cancer. She received needed treatment that is not covered on their health insurance plan...

End of Days - The Silence is almost over. 76 days and counting. Please let this go quickly. Please.

The Roost of the Ugly Swan - The Roost of the Ugly Swan

What I Like - What I Like

No Day But Today - No Day But Today

A Pilgrims Sojourn - A Pilgrims Sojourn

Unnecessary Pain - As I read through old posts its interesting to see where life has taken me since coming out of the closet. There is a happiness and peace present that has...

why i will never read “ender’s game” - I lot of people I know really like the sci-fi author Orson Scott Card, especially his most famous book, Ender’s Game. As someone who enjoys reading (acces...

My Mom talking about my Grandpa. - Someday, when I get where I'm going, we're gonna have a good little reunion. "When he was younger, he was always making or mending or trying to fix thing...

225: Five Year Plan - [note: my longest posting to date, but this has been coming for some time] I'm not the kind of guy who wakes up to rainstorm and says, "well, my planned da...

The End - It’s been a while since I’ve posted on here. Like…. over a year. I’m pretty okay with that, too. I was getting to the point that I ran out of things to s...

Thankful for all the guys here :) - I'm in a new stage of coming out to myself now.....the drama and the self loathing is largely dissapating. It's been because of meeting or being influenced...

Turn It Off! - "Turn it off! Like a light switch! Just go click!" "Imagine that your brain is made of tiny boxes and find the box that is gay and CRUSH IT!!!" Both of ...

New Blog - My new blog is at: www.onedayofmine.blogspot.com Follow me over there. :) -Konrad

Fall 2011 Preview: Monday - As many of you know, chedner and I enjoy our TV quite a bit. This series will look at the new network shows. With any luck, this series will show I hav...

Inside a Mormon Mixed-Orientation Marriage: The Toll - * “Losing you [when you joined the church] was like a guillotine blade that beheaded the loving richness I had in my life. [After you joined the church]...

:) - So i really do neglect this blog.. But great News. My Boyfriend took me to Bali for our 1st Aniversary in May... And I Proposed and he said yes. Were get...

feeling free - Some people use the beginning of a new year as a time for establishing goals or a "fresh start" on whatever they feel they need to address. To a degree, I am...

Why I Changed My Name - It has taken quite some time to get to this point, but I am just now changing my name on facebook. I know a lot of people might have questions about why I ...

Book Reviews - I've been neglecting my reviews of gay-themed books lately! It's definitely not all I read, but let me just briefly mention some of the gay-themed stuff I'...

Healthcare Disparities - Just published a few comments that have been waiting in the hopper for almost a year... so, sorry about that. :-) Haven't logged in here for a while. Deci...

In the last year or so... - World of make believe...

Whoops - I just visited the National Organization for Marriage's website. They have a predrafted letter to the senators of New York, and are asking people to send ...

The Word of Wisdom: The First Time - I grew up in a house that was quite strictly Mormon. Bending of the rules? No way! And the Word of Wisdom was no exception. As I've grown up, I've met othe...

An Open Letter To Single Gay Men - I got a letter a while back from a guy wondering if he should tell the girl he was interested in dating about his attraction to men. I'd like to make my re...

God's wrath (or sense of humor). You pick. - You might say that I was a very fastidious student. That might be an understatement. But that's not specifically what this post is about, so we'll leave th...

Check-Up - This is an outsider's view of "Baughb Sanders". He is a pretty cool guy, never afraid to stand up for himself or his friends. He may suck at Scrabble, bu...

My Sanity (Insanity) - I don't know why I do this, but I am a worrier when it comes to relationships. I worry that I say the wrong things or do the wrong things and that my belov...

Crossroads - I have a fairly weighty decision to make... Do I trade happiness for security, or do I take a leap of faith?

May 19, 2011 - Another day has gone by and somehow another week has gone by. It seems like the week goes by faster as the months come closer to the 12th month of the year...

The strongest person I've ever known. - My mother was an amazing woman. In her life she had so many struggles with health and depression but through it all she made sure her children knew they w...

Large Wooden Penis in Salt Lake City Park - There was a MAYPOLE in Sugarhouse Park today. Being May 1st I realized it was May day. This particular Maypole was carved to look like a large wooden phall...

What Happens When You Take 3 Weeks to Write A Post - I think that when you write a blog, the "Title" box should be below the entry. I mean, many times I want to blog but I don't know what direction the entry ...

I told you so - Remember when I said I could never be a gay Mormon West Virginian? Well, here's the proof. Now, I love Lady Gaga. I also love Country Roads. In fac...

Prayer - I know it's been a while since I've blogged but I was thinking today about prayer and I was hoping to get some input and thoughts about it. Up until I crea...

Rd to Authenticity: Winter in NY and My First Relationship - In fall 2008 The GRAD support group had seen an increase of new faces during this time it was now more that jus Kay, Chris, and I. We gained a few more p...

Make a New Beginning - I am many things--husband, son, brother, barista, writer, artist, humanist, former Mormon, homosexual--It's funny how something like a blog can pinpoint tw...

The Beginning of the End - Now that was a little dramatic, wasn't it? It's sort of correct, though. The bishop of the local ward came and paid Derrick and I a visit last night. We le...

“The letter” to my parents… - I’ve been meaning to share this for awhile because I thought it would be useful to those who may be coming out now themselves. When I wrote this I was ver...

1:31 AM - So not quite sure what I'm doing up at this hour. Just woke up and now I'm feeling so nostalgic, or pensive, yeah that's a better word, and odd. I would ra...

Answering a Friend's Question about Faith in the Church - Below is an email response I sent to a friend. He's a great friend, so I enjoyed thinking about this topic. XXXXXX, I have been thinking about your qu...

LUCKY BASTARD - Okay, so here is the deal. I'm not ugly! I mean, I don't think I'm Brad Pitt or anything. I realize I'm not what you would call "hot", but I'm not ugly. ...

Finding Hope - I went to church last Sunday to find hope. I've been down since I haven't heard anything back from the schools I interviewed at. I thought that all of my i...

22 Truths - 1. I met my twin. His name is Mary. And so is mine. But you're not allowed to call me that. Unless you're Mary. 2. For the first time ever, I was "that guy...

New Job - We have not been very faithful at updating our blog! If you missed pictures of the new apartment, you can see them here. We love the neighborhood and the n...

Taking a Closer Look at Furniture and Other Home Items - When people talk about furniture, they usually mean home furniture like dining tables and china hutch for the dining room, Free standing Kitchen Cabinets, C...

Unwitting Guest Post by Nicole Hardy - This was just published in the New York Times online. I think "Sister" Hardy eloquently expresses much of what I have faced and felt over the years as a si...

Omega (& Alpha) - I'm done. I'm no longer Mormon (officially), or In The Closet, or plagued with the Dichotomy between homosexuality and the church. There's no longer any re...

Miss me already? :-) - OK so I thought things over and I have found blogging to be therapeutic in many ways. I am not ready to give it up and let's face it, costs a lot less than...

Epicog - With the spare time that comes with the season it’s probably best I tidy up this little loose end of the internet and put this blog to bed. Summing up the...

spam - my account linked to this blog was just hacked... thankfully google is on top of these things and stopped a spam email from going out to 16 random people.....

Time Flies... - Wow, it has almost been four months since I last wrote on this blog. I think I'll say that it has been crazy busy. And, if fact, that is the truth. The r...

Hello New York, Goodbye Giving Up -

truth... from others - i'm not great at blogging. frankly it's really due to the fact that i am lazy. i would rather read other blog postings than write in mine. i think it has s...

Am I a Hypocrite? - *"Judge Norman Randy Smith* - He was confirmed in 2007 after being nominated by President George W. Bush. Born in Logan, Utah, Smith graduated from Brigham...

Blasphemous Brassieres - There is a funny thread at RfM about wearing garments. One of the men posed a question about whether or not it's true that endowed mormon women are told to...

This is my porn! -

Dear Mormon Friends - Dear Mormon friends, Please don't ever use the phrase "I'm sorry you feel that way" ever again. Thank you. Much love, Captain Midnight

Europe, Moving, and Holden - Don't you ever wonder when life wont be so complicated? I do all the time! Since I have written last I have been busy with basically starting a whole new l...

Homosexuality: A Straight BYU Student’s Perspective - 1) President Packer’s general conference talk 2) The recent rash of suicides by gay teens across the country, accompanying “It Gets Better Projec...

Hawn Key - "All mankind love a lover." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson I've been digesting what Packer said for a few days now. I have three brief insights I'd like to share wi...

An Explanation Why - The reason I haven't updated my blog is this: This blog was created for me to share personal feelings in an anonymous way. When I started going to therapy...

me too - me too - i gotta say - i've been contemplating this for a while now myself & after beck's post this morning - sorta ticked he beat me to it - well - i'm gonna ride ...

Seriously Blessed... Like Seriously. - Those of you who know me know that I am a very blessed guy. I'm blessed with a supportive, loving family who keeps in regular contact with me. I'm blessed...

The Recent Suicide Epidemic - An Addendum - It has come to our attention that our previous post contained some unsubstantiated information. Alec Henriksen was an ally for gay rights, however not gay ...

Thank You President Packer for Another Nail in my Closet Door. - I'm stunned. I'm saddened. From the very beginning of President Packer's talk there was a frosty chill sweeping down from the Conference pulpit. Even his...

Moving On - We have been blogging for many years, sharing our likes and dislikes, triumphs and disappointments, passions, adventures, and discoveries. And it has indee...

So I Met This Guy... - A few months ago, I met this really awesome guy. He's cute, funny, intelligent, kind, genuine, hard-working, and gorgeous to boot. Also, he's in med schoo...

Cherry Tea Cakes: Finalists in the Express Night Out ‘Best of 2010′ ... - Cherry Tea Cakes: Finalists in the Express Night Out ‘Best of 2010′ ...: "I’ve already had it on the side board, and at the bottom of the last post, but it...

Gay mormon support poll - Regarding the What Would A Real Gay Mormon Organization Look Like? post on John Gustav-Wrathall's blog, please take the poll about gay Mormon support organ...

Please just stop all the searching. I am ok I just want some space - I did not do all this for attention. It is the last thing I wanted. I do not want people feeling sorry for me. I just have hit rock bottom and will handle ...

On My Honor - Having just returned from my (successful) Eagle Scout Board of Review, I should be basking in the triumph of a well-earned accomplishment. Instead, I am wo...

New New York. - At 6am this morning, as I pulled my overly-packed full vehicle up to the Starbucks drive-thru, I turned on my Garmin GPS. I hit: "Set Home Location" and en...

Carol Lynn Pearson - Everyone should watch this interview. http://mormonstories.org/?p=1091 It is over four and a half hours long, so take some time out to watch it. It is we...

- For anyone that is interested (ie those who were too shy to email for a blog invite) my new blog is gone public. http://eye-smack.blogspot.com

Burnout - So as of the other day I had to admit to myself-I am starting to get burned out. I have been doing my Mannatech business off and on for the past few years...

Daze on Prime Time Television. - Guess what hit television program, broadcast nationally, rolled into town today to start shooting a big episode at a house not far from me! And while yo...

So this is how rumors begin - Ever heard that Steve Martin is Mormon? Or Alice Cooper? Or Christina Aguilera? Yeah, well, this is how these types of rumors get started, except this one ...

Mr. O'Reilly met his match? - From Sir Bill's colum *Panic on the Left:* But let's get back to Letterman. Speaking with far-left MSNBC News commentator Rachel Maddow on his program, Dave...

michael allen sampson - *From my journal. Written 16 March 2007. Monterey, CA* His name was Michael. He was my brother. And I never knew him except in death and yet it was his dea...

To My Wife - I would like to apoligize to my wife, if you are reading this. I know that we have an unspoken understanding that I was not going to come back to my blog. ...

move on, move on - I've noticed that quite a few people are still coming here. I've permanently moved my blogging to my tumblr blog, were I update several times a week. I don...

Just gotta be done - I am not satisfied with the way my life is going lately. I accept full responsibility. Instead of getting better, I have made it worse. I've cuddled with ...

- It's been so long. Where do I start? I graduated from the Y over a year ago. It took me a long time to graduate, and no, I'm not a doctor. I didn't have a ...

Boyfriends, Police, Fingerprinting, and Almost Died! - Today started out great! I woke up, found out I lost 14.2lbs and than ate breakfast that was made for me. Than I ran 4 miles in one hour (personal best but...

“Stand Up for Understanding,” One of the Conference Action Groups - One of the most powerful ways to achieve LGBT equality is to reach out to people we know – our families, relatives, friends, and neighbors. Those who are un...

Joy in the Journey - In my ongoing exploration (through thoughts and discussion) of topics such as beliefs, love, and life choices, answers come very rarely. If there's one co...

THANK YOU DEAN A. BREWER! - I just came across an article with a pen name, "Dean A. Brewer", that touched my heart. He talks of the paradox between his attraction to other men and his...

A New Blog for Chris - Hey everyone...If anyone is interested, I started a new blog I will be using. It is less gay mormon focused and little bit just about my life. Here is the ...

My Glee Audition - Cross Posted from www.DavidsAwakening.blogspot.com Hi everyone. As many of you know I have recently auditioned for Glee. Below you will find my videos. I...

The Break Up - Dear Blog, I think it's time for us to face reality. We've hardly seen each other in months, and to be honest, I haven't missed you. Yes, we've had a lot ...

weird. - I once dreamed I was in this amazing sandwich shop. I got my sandwich and commenced eating. To my surprise there was a daddy long-leg spider in place of th...

What the church does for people. - Since I left the church, the staunch and zealous opinions I held in my youth have given way to something I think is much more practical. Now I consider mys...

A Very Marry Christmas - Todd and I decided to spend Christmas Eve at home alone. We had already been to several holiday parties in the past few weeks and we decided we wanted some...

Sweet & tender little commercial That I wanted to share - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxqGOnvU6yI&feature=player_embedded That video is really full of the hope of all humanity with a great message to not fear. ...

Goodnight Gracie - It should be pretty obvious by now that I don't blog much anymore and I don't read much of anyone else's blog. Life is busy and this blog is no longer the ...

Being Gay and Mormon - Gays and Mormons are among the most misunderstood minorities in the United States. In most neighborhoods across the country, if either one were to move in,...

Moved - I have moved http://vegasmoho.blogspot.com/

Proposition 8 Trial Summaries - The Proposition 8 trial wrapped up this week and summaries (of sorts) have been issued by both sides. The American Foundation for Equal Rights, the organiz...

- Maybe one day I'll actually have a blog that I update. Until then, here's my vlog: www.youtube.com/user/strongestintheworld It's updated once or twice a mo...

HCO and Me. - So for the last few days, a bit has happened. Firstly, my roomie who now reads my blog is seriously considering turning me into HCO. It sucks. The thing is...

The Noughties - I was in France for Christmas and got back to snow-covered Edinburgh yesterday afternoon. I had been invited to a New Year's Eve party but didn't feel like...

Wandering - After life kept pounding me with right and left hooks (and an occasional sucker punch), I feel like I have gained some control. Actually the pessimist in m...

Best Gay...Week? - So yeah, I have not been near a computer much the last week or so, but life has been really good. Highlights- New Job = GREAT! Great Friends Got me a n...

... searching ... - * ... and there, in the depths of the verdant wood did I espy the hart. With great care I moved forward, to best satisfy the appetite of our merrye bande ....

Because I Knew You, I Have Been Changed - Given that today is Thanksgiving, I wanted to share two things for which I’m thankful. The first is good people. I take that back. I’m thankful for awesome...

Because I Knew You, I Have Been Changed - Reminder: I've changed the location of my blog to ryansmiley.wordpress.com. This may be the last time I post to this blog address...Given that today is Than...

arise, despondency, and speak - I know, I just posted about having goals and a new lease on life and motivation coming back. Crap. Instead of working on goals or projects or any damn thin...

* Need. - I awoke this morning feeling the compelling need to leave blogger land. I may be back. I do not know at this point. Thank you to those of you who have stop...

It'll All Turn Out - Ok, here's a different post. I just discovered this song today by Michael Buble. I've listened to it NON STOP since I found it. I absolutely LOVE it! I'...

Blog - Now Active - Now Active Mormon and Same Gender Attraction CLICK HERE

More family weirdness - So today my sister-in-law told me that my niece(not her daughter) had seen my profile picture on Facebook and asked her parents why I had my friend(actuall...

Girl Cooties - I've not been to a Mormon singles event in years. Until last night … I live in Salt Lake City and I'm of a certain age. Which means I have great LDS frie...

Reading Rainbow: Lawyer School Summer Reading (Part I) - *School orientation starts on Monday. I was given three books to read beforehand: The Street Lawyer by John Grisham, Dreams from the Monster Factory by Sun...

I am bitter - A friend of mine recently read my blog and said that I came across as bitter towards the Church. I admit that that I was bitter/angry/hurt/upset when I fir...

Is This My Last Battle? - But the Glorious One bent down his golden head and touched my forehead with his tongue and said, Son, thou art welcome. But I said, Alas, Lord, I am no son...

what came first....the SSA chicken or the gay egg??? - Sometimes I wonder if I was "born this way" or if my struggle with SSA is a product of my early years?!?! The infamous "nature vs. nurture" question, I kno...

Just Gay - The Wicked Witch never died- she just sneaked away with her Fiyero in the end. I am officially done with BYU and the LDS church. I graduated in April, and...

Thoughts on A Conference - Phoenix told me about this elder oaks press conference thing. I had no idea, I didn't believe him. Anyways, here it is. Their stuff is in black, and my c...

Disgusted - If the me from one year ago met me today, he would be disgusted. I've become everything I hated in a matter of weeks. I'm not happy so I'm filling my life ...

When Will It Break? - I have yet to cry this week. I know it will happen. It is building. The events of this past week are gallons of water pushing up against a weak, cracked, a...

Immediate Reaction - I needed to capture this feeling, because I don't know what it'll have turned into tomorrow.... 2:34am Connie Hey kid, are you ok? Robbie yeah... talki...

Live With Somebody You Love - I'm going to finally take charge of my life. I can't believe nearly a month has passed since I last posted here. I keep telling myself I'll update my blog...

DEATH IN THE DESERT - EVERETT REUSS my long lost hero....LOST to generations of nomads, misfits, monkeywrenchers and adventurers. Found on a fluke of circumstances. I have spent...

Real versus Ideal - If you didn’t know it before now, I’ll let you know: before I pursued an education degree I was a psychology major. My plans were to be psychologist. I ori...

Hi, I'm Wyatt - I use to care A LOT about anyone knowing my identity in association with this blog, but I don't have any reason to hide anymore. In fact, I owe it to myse...

I finaly talked to my older brother about it - so a few days after I came out to my best friend (lets call her Amy), my older brother (lets call him Zane) who has been going to BYU and knows I'm gay but...

On a serious note... - My House of Cards Constructing a house of cards can often be difficult and painfully disappointing. The builder often exhales an audible sigh of relie...

An insightful interview of a good friend of mine - The following is a 45 minute interview of a good friend of mine. He is a very active gay Mormon and talks about his experience with "coming out", his persp...

New Blog Address - Okay, I know we’ve been through this before, but I have a new blog. I promise to keep this one updated. Honest to gosh. I even have the second post alre...

Politics Corrections - Master FOB responded to my post about Prop 8. I filter my responses, but allowed his for 2 reasons. One, I like and respect him. Two, he is right. The Chur...

I’d Be Fine With Celibacy, If It Weren’t For The Lack of Sex - I realize I am not alone in my situation. Take just about any single, active Mormon male and the odds are pretty high that the only one that has seen him ...

- So its 4 something and I'm still up. My back hurts. It Is so tight. I want to scream! I took my muscle relaxers. Not working. So I'm sitting here in my hal...

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